It seems fitting to write my latest entry on Father's Day, considering my last one was written on Mother's Day. I didn't mean to go this long without a post, but as you'll soon understand ... my hands have been quite busy. This is another "for posterity" post, not only for me to record the … Continue reading Newborn Isolation
Last year, also on Mother's Day, I wrote a post that was just an utter jumble of thoughts and emotions. I was absolutely beside myself with overwhelming feelings and I knew that I just needed to put them from words to sentences, to get them out of my head, and maybe - just maybe - … Continue reading Sit Back. Relax. Recap.
Hi. My name is Jenn, it's May 1st ... and I'm having a baby this month. It feels like the last 6 weeks have gone by in a blur while, at the same time, time has no meaning and has stood still. There have been a few memorable moments, but overall my days are bland … Continue reading May Day
So this blog post is mostly for posterity ... I want to commit every detail of this to memory, and writing things down is a way to do it. I also want a way to look back on this easily. Memories are fickle, and it's not always easy to capture the small details and moments … Continue reading Curbside Baby Shower
If I've said it before I've said it a hundred times: I'm a people pleaser. There was a moment of relief when I found the name of what I was feeling and how I was acting. It made it easier to understand myself and move forward. Not that it's stopped the behaviour, but now that … Continue reading Selfish Self-ish
I've been sitting at the laptop for awhile, insomnia waking me up long before I was ready for it. Boyfriend has been getting a few extra winks in for the last few hours. I've been staring at blank screens and blinking cursors, knowing the ache and the longing to write is eating at my brain … Continue reading Stretch It Out
I called my baby a parasite. It wasn't the first time I had thought it; truth is I've been thinking it for awhile, but it was the first time I said it out loud ... not just typing it, but physically putting thoughts to words that came out of my mouth. I called his baby … Continue reading Parasite
This week has been brought to you by the letter I for Invisible, which absolutely sums up how I have felt this week. So many things have happened. Lots that involve me, a few that directly concern me ... and so many that happened without my input. A lot of things I found out after … Continue reading I for Invisible, P for Processing
In true "my life is a made-for-TV movie" moment, it would appear my words have summoning powers. I just wrote two blog entries about someone critical to my growth as a person who is no longer in my life. On another social forum I wrote a blog entry, again referencing them (it can't be helped! … Continue reading Anxiety Monster Strikes Again
You might not know this about me, but I've been blogging for a long time. It started as a teenager, when I got my first unsupervised accesses to the internet via high school computer classes and libraries. Oh yes, I had a Teen Open Diary (if anyone remembers those!) and have been through various platforms, blogging styles, … Continue reading To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before
