Last year, also on Mother's Day, I wrote a post that was just an utter jumble of thoughts and emotions. I was absolutely beside myself with overwhelming feelings and I knew that I just needed to put them from words to sentences, to get them out of my head, and maybe - just maybe - … Continue reading Sit Back. Relax. Recap.
Hi. My name is Jenn, it's May 1st ... and I'm having a baby this month. It feels like the last 6 weeks have gone by in a blur while, at the same time, time has no meaning and has stood still. There have been a few memorable moments, but overall my days are bland … Continue reading May Day
So this blog post is mostly for posterity ... I want to commit every detail of this to memory, and writing things down is a way to do it. I also want a way to look back on this easily. Memories are fickle, and it's not always easy to capture the small details and moments … Continue reading Curbside Baby Shower
If I've said it before I've said it a hundred times: I'm a people pleaser. There was a moment of relief when I found the name of what I was feeling and how I was acting. It made it easier to understand myself and move forward. Not that it's stopped the behaviour, but now that … Continue reading Selfish Self-ish
I called my baby a parasite. It wasn't the first time I had thought it; truth is I've been thinking it for awhile, but it was the first time I said it out loud ... not just typing it, but physically putting thoughts to words that came out of my mouth. I called his baby … Continue reading Parasite
In true "my life is a made-for-TV movie" moment, it would appear my words have summoning powers. I just wrote two blog entries about someone critical to my growth as a person who is no longer in my life. On another social forum I wrote a blog entry, again referencing them (it can't be helped! … Continue reading Anxiety Monster Strikes Again
In mid-December my work office got an upgrade - matching desk and bookshelf! No more mis-matched grey pieces for me ... no no. Bigger desk, more organized shelving, and a perfect space for some knickknacks. Obviously I brought a couple of Funko Pops! from home to keep me company, and I have this lovely photo … Continue reading It Doesn’t Get Any Better Than This
The last time I was here it had just rolled into summer - long days and hot nights, and my body was so ready. Best laid plans and all. I was unprepared for what was coming at me - a very stressful summer at work, and some medical concerns that I could not answer. Navigating … Continue reading Ketchup? Catch Up.
In recovery, like everything else, a solitary event can change your path or course. Both good and bad, it is something you might only notice in hindsight. The last 6 weeks have been like that; as I read back to see what my last few entries were on, knowing how things have occurred, it's curious … Continue reading The Unplannable
At first you aren't sure it's there. Blink and you'll miss it. You might unconsciously stroke your chest, an idle itch. A nagging feeling, a lingering wonder. You carry on with your work day, trying to soldier pass the worry. Your clothes don't feel comfortable any more. Your breath hitches and catches slightly. Is your … Continue reading The Anxiety Weight