Today is a very emotionally charged day for me. While I've attempted multiple times to write about some of these topics I can't seem to have the words flow like I'm used to. So here are some things in point-form to help me get started. Things I know to be true: - Almost six years … Continue reading Sit Back. Relax. Relapse.
Tag: eating disorder
Shared Space
This week I've been thinking a lot about shared space, and what it means to me. I've also been thinking that if maybe I just write about a new topic it will help move forward the other ones I've been trying to write for weeks now to no avail. Alas, writer's block is a terrible … Continue reading Shared Space
Unfocused
For the last few weeks I've attempted to write out my thoughts about some topics. I started the entry, thought of a vaguely clever title, but the words never flowed. What few came out where disjointed and jumbled. I walked away for a couple of days, only for something else to happen that I felt … Continue reading Unfocused
We Accept the Love We Think We Deserve
Mr Anderson: We accept the love we think we deserve. Charlie: Can we make them know that they deserve more? Mr Anderson: We can try. - Stephen Chbosky, "The Perks of Being a Wallflower" While browsing Netflix this afternoon I stopped on this movie and they played this quote in their preview. I know this … Continue reading We Accept the Love We Think We Deserve
Disordered Recovery
I started reading Body Positive Power. I've read about 40 pages at this point. I did not expect those pages to drop me to my knees so quickly, to peel back the scab of things I thought long healed. I felt vulnerable reading those pages ... not because of anything necessarily profound it was saying - … Continue reading Disordered Recovery
Breaking The Wheel
I plan a lot. I like making plans and seeing them come together. I like making plans to make plans. And sometimes I make goals. But as good as I am about seeing my plans from start to finish, I can't always say the same for my goals. I love the idea of goals, but … Continue reading Breaking The Wheel
The Struggles of Mindful Recovery
The inspiration for this post came while I was waiting at a bus stop after work. I knew I had about a 25 minute wait for a bus. I knew I was standing not far from a Mac Milk Convenience store. It occurred to me that they had lots of snacks there, including Hostess cupcakes. … Continue reading The Struggles of Mindful Recovery
Adult Clothing
How many times have you seen this narrative in a fictional story: main character magically transformed into a different person, a different version of themselves, just by changing their clothing and donning something they would have never worn before. "The clothing makes the man", or so the saying goes. I've never really put a ton … Continue reading Adult Clothing
Just A Moment
Pull up a comfy chair, put on a pot a tea ... this might be a long one, Folks. What I'm about to write about is really difficult for me. A few hours removed from the original event and I can still feel the flutters in my stomach. I'm writing about this because it is … Continue reading Just A Moment