At first you aren't sure it's there. Blink and you'll miss it. You might unconsciously stroke your chest, an idle itch. A nagging feeling, a lingering wonder. You carry on with your work day, trying to soldier pass the worry. Your clothes don't feel comfortable any more. Your breath hitches and catches slightly. Is your … Continue reading The Anxiety Weight
Tag: mental health
Unfocused
For the last few weeks I've attempted to write out my thoughts about some topics. I started the entry, thought of a vaguely clever title, but the words never flowed. What few came out where disjointed and jumbled. I walked away for a couple of days, only for something else to happen that I felt … Continue reading Unfocused
W. A. R.
After posting my last blog entry I leaned back on the couch, munching on a delicious slice of pizza, and feeling exceptionally proud of myself. Truthfully, I would have been proud no matter how that entry had turned out, but I was excited to see my thought process shifting. To know it's less the flowery … Continue reading W. A. R.
Shame Game
At the end of January one of my best friends got married. This was easily the classiest wedding I've ever been to. She got married at the Henry Ford Museum, which I do mean to visit because it's just that cool. I took BF with me and while we had a harrowing adventure just to … Continue reading Shame Game
We Accept the Love We Think We Deserve
Mr Anderson: We accept the love we think we deserve. Charlie: Can we make them know that they deserve more? Mr Anderson: We can try. - Stephen Chbosky, "The Perks of Being a Wallflower" While browsing Netflix this afternoon I stopped on this movie and they played this quote in their preview. I know this … Continue reading We Accept the Love We Think We Deserve
SMRT Goals
This week has been quite emotional. As I read more and more of Body Positive Power I feel my eyes opening more and more. Like my last post, laying it all out in one place can be a powerful way to really see the big picture. But more importantly this book was giving me pause. When … Continue reading SMRT Goals
Disordered Recovery
I started reading Body Positive Power. I've read about 40 pages at this point. I did not expect those pages to drop me to my knees so quickly, to peel back the scab of things I thought long healed. I felt vulnerable reading those pages ... not because of anything necessarily profound it was saying - … Continue reading Disordered Recovery
Birthday Eve
As a Type A(+) planner, there is nothing I like more than beginnings. Beginnings feel like the perfect time to start something new, to set goals and execute them, to have a fresh start at something. To me, there has always been three beginnings that occur yearly: New Years, the start of a new school … Continue reading Birthday Eve
FOMO – Feeling Out My Objectives
Have you ever heard the term FOMO? It means "fear of missing out". The first time I remember noticing it was on a Drumstick advertisement, and yes I fear missing out on delicious ice cream. However, the term has been dancing around my head for the last couple of weeks, so I think it's time … Continue reading FOMO – Feeling Out My Objectives
Of Cues, Signs, and Blocks
I have a confession - I have anxiety about writing. Well, that's not really a confession, I have anxiety about everything, which is just par for the course when you have an anxiety disorder. When I don't feel anxious about something I worry (which of course is what anxiety is all about), which is to say … Continue reading Of Cues, Signs, and Blocks
