In recovery, like everything else, a solitary event can change your path or course. Both good and bad, it is something you might only notice in hindsight. The last 6 weeks have been like that; as I read back to see what my last few entries were on, knowing how things have occurred, it's curious … Continue reading The Unplannable
Today is a very emotionally charged day for me. While I've attempted multiple times to write about some of these topics I can't seem to have the words flow like I'm used to. So here are some things in point-form to help me get started. Things I know to be true: - Almost six years … Continue reading Sit Back. Relax. Relapse.
For the last few weeks I've attempted to write out my thoughts about some topics. I started the entry, thought of a vaguely clever title, but the words never flowed. What few came out where disjointed and jumbled. I walked away for a couple of days, only for something else to happen that I felt … Continue reading Unfocused
After posting my last blog entry I leaned back on the couch, munching on a delicious slice of pizza, and feeling exceptionally proud of myself. Truthfully, I would have been proud no matter how that entry had turned out, but I was excited to see my thought process shifting. To know it's less the flowery … Continue reading W. A. R.
At the end of January one of my best friends got married. This was easily the classiest wedding I've ever been to. She got married at the Henry Ford Museum, which I do mean to visit because it's just that cool. I took BF with me and while we had a harrowing adventure just to … Continue reading Shame Game
Mr Anderson: We accept the love we think we deserve. Charlie: Can we make them know that they deserve more? Mr Anderson: We can try. - Stephen Chbosky, "The Perks of Being a Wallflower" While browsing Netflix this afternoon I stopped on this movie and they played this quote in their preview. I know this … Continue reading We Accept the Love We Think We Deserve
This week has been quite emotional. As I read more and more of Body Positive Power I feel my eyes opening more and more. Like my last post, laying it all out in one place can be a powerful way to really see the big picture. But more importantly this book was giving me pause. When … Continue reading SMRT Goals
The inspiration for this post came while I was waiting at a bus stop after work. I knew I had about a 25 minute wait for a bus. I knew I was standing not far from a Mac Milk Convenience store. It occurred to me that they had lots of snacks there, including Hostess cupcakes. … Continue reading The Struggles of Mindful Recovery
How many times have you seen this narrative in a fictional story: main character magically transformed into a different person, a different version of themselves, just by changing their clothing and donning something they would have never worn before. "The clothing makes the man", or so the saying goes. I've never really put a ton … Continue reading Adult Clothing
I have a confession - I have anxiety about writing. Well, that's not really a confession, I have anxiety about everything, which is just par for the course when you have an anxiety disorder. When I don't feel anxious about something I worry (which of course is what anxiety is all about), which is to say … Continue reading Of Cues, Signs, and Blocks