Last year, also on Mother's Day, I wrote a post that was just an utter jumble of thoughts and emotions. I was absolutely beside myself with overwhelming feelings and I knew that I just needed to put them from words to sentences, to get them out of my head, and maybe - just maybe - … Continue reading Sit Back. Relax. Recap.
If I've said it before I've said it a hundred times: I'm a people pleaser. There was a moment of relief when I found the name of what I was feeling and how I was acting. It made it easier to understand myself and move forward. Not that it's stopped the behaviour, but now that … Continue reading Selfish Self-ish
I've been sitting at the laptop for awhile, insomnia waking me up long before I was ready for it. Boyfriend has been getting a few extra winks in for the last few hours. I've been staring at blank screens and blinking cursors, knowing the ache and the longing to write is eating at my brain … Continue reading Stretch It Out
I called my baby a parasite. It wasn't the first time I had thought it; truth is I've been thinking it for awhile, but it was the first time I said it out loud ... not just typing it, but physically putting thoughts to words that came out of my mouth. I called his baby … Continue reading Parasite
I finally get to share some news I've been holding on to for months ... I'm pregnant! I've been wanting to write about this since I found out in September. There's so much I want to say, so trying to pick and choose the best or most important parts is hard. Firstly, perfectly planned but still … Continue reading The One With the Big Announcement
In recovery, like everything else, a solitary event can change your path or course. Both good and bad, it is something you might only notice in hindsight. The last 6 weeks have been like that; as I read back to see what my last few entries were on, knowing how things have occurred, it's curious … Continue reading The Unplannable
Today is a very emotionally charged day for me. While I've attempted multiple times to write about some of these topics I can't seem to have the words flow like I'm used to. So here are some things in point-form to help me get started. Things I know to be true: - Almost six years … Continue reading Sit Back. Relax. Relapse.
For the last few weeks I've attempted to write out my thoughts about some topics. I started the entry, thought of a vaguely clever title, but the words never flowed. What few came out where disjointed and jumbled. I walked away for a couple of days, only for something else to happen that I felt … Continue reading Unfocused
After posting my last blog entry I leaned back on the couch, munching on a delicious slice of pizza, and feeling exceptionally proud of myself. Truthfully, I would have been proud no matter how that entry had turned out, but I was excited to see my thought process shifting. To know it's less the flowery … Continue reading W. A. R.
At the end of January one of my best friends got married. This was easily the classiest wedding I've ever been to. She got married at the Henry Ford Museum, which I do mean to visit because it's just that cool. I took BF with me and while we had a harrowing adventure just to … Continue reading Shame Game