I've been sitting at the laptop for awhile, insomnia waking me up long before I was ready for it. Boyfriend has been getting a few extra winks in for the last few hours. I've been staring at blank screens and blinking cursors, knowing the ache and the longing to write is eating at my brain … Continue reading Stretch It Out
I called my baby a parasite. It wasn't the first time I had thought it; truth is I've been thinking it for awhile, but it was the first time I said it out loud ... not just typing it, but physically putting thoughts to words that came out of my mouth. I called his baby … Continue reading Parasite
In true "my life is a made-for-TV movie" moment, it would appear my words have summoning powers. I just wrote two blog entries about someone critical to my growth as a person who is no longer in my life. On another social forum I wrote a blog entry, again referencing them (it can't be helped! … Continue reading Anxiety Monster Strikes Again
You might not know this about me, but I've been blogging for a long time. It started as a teenager, when I got my first unsupervised accesses to the internet via high school computer classes and libraries. Oh yes, I had a Teen Open Diary (if anyone remembers those!) and have been through various platforms, blogging styles, … Continue reading To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before
In mid-December my work office got an upgrade - matching desk and bookshelf! No more mis-matched grey pieces for me ... no no. Bigger desk, more organized shelving, and a perfect space for some knickknacks. Obviously I brought a couple of Funko Pops! from home to keep me company, and I have this lovely photo … Continue reading It Doesn’t Get Any Better Than This
I finally get to share some news I've been holding on to for months ... I'm pregnant! I've been wanting to write about this since I found out in September. There's so much I want to say, so trying to pick and choose the best or most important parts is hard. Firstly, perfectly planned but still … Continue reading The One With the Big Announcement
The last time I was here it had just rolled into summer - long days and hot nights, and my body was so ready. Best laid plans and all. I was unprepared for what was coming at me - a very stressful summer at work, and some medical concerns that I could not answer. Navigating … Continue reading Ketchup? Catch Up.
Do you know what today is? IT'S MY BIRTHDAY! Growing up I was pretty modest about it being my birthday. I didn't tell a lot of people necessarily, I didn't make a big show about it with a "birthday girl" pin or something obvious. Social media makes it possible that people I'm connected with know … Continue reading The Birthday Show
In recovery, like everything else, a solitary event can change your path or course. Both good and bad, it is something you might only notice in hindsight. The last 6 weeks have been like that; as I read back to see what my last few entries were on, knowing how things have occurred, it's curious … Continue reading The Unplannable
Today is a very emotionally charged day for me. While I've attempted multiple times to write about some of these topics I can't seem to have the words flow like I'm used to. So here are some things in point-form to help me get started. Things I know to be true: - Almost six years … Continue reading Sit Back. Relax. Relapse.